Break is Over

So.....I've been on Spring Break for about the last four days. Well, five if you count today. Anyways, I'm heading back to Stockton tomorrow, although ironically enough I didn't want to leave as early as Thursday, even though I did want to get the hell out of Folsom. Its strange...all the things that were relaxing to me when I was younger, such as playing video games, reading books, watching movies... a lot of these don't hold my attention for more than an hour or two. Its strange; I feel like I can do anything at home, yet I have so many options that I literally feel like I can't make a decision. Not only that, but here, the discipline I evoke at UOP evaporates; disappears. I've been taking naps and sleeping in till 1 PM for the last few days. I haven't studied O. Chem, even though I'm far, far behind. And I haven't exercised, even though I brought my running shoes with me.

None of that seems to matter, though. Because I know when I'm back at UOP, I do what needs to be done. I work out; I get my diet under control. I study. I sleep on time. I can run on 5 hours of sleep and 2400 calories and still feel less tired than when I'm at home getting 12 or 13 hours of sleep. I guess you could say that I'm rotting away when I'm at home; and its pretty much true. All my discipline, willpower, whatever, it all leaves me when I'm in Folsom. So, even though it certainly hasn't felt like it these last few days, Folsom still is home to me if I can actually relax. Who'd thought of that?