Groups

Over the past few days, I've been noticing something. Not a particular trend, or pattern, or anything of the sort, but just the behavior people exhibit when in groups. Not really having much of a group that I really identify with anymore, I find it fascinating (although, you would probably just think its creepy) watching the interactions between myself and other people. People whom I can normally engage in one on one conversations with suddenly become cold and indifferent towards me when in the company of other people. I wonder; can other people's opinions about one person really shape the attitude of another person's feelings about that person?

Its an interesting phenomena. Its almost unconscious, in that the person I wanted to talk to is stuck between a rock and a hard place; its like he senses the undercurrent, or tension, and cuts it by ignoring the outsider. I find it both hilarious, and saddening, at the same time; hilarious, for we are all fools who don't address the problem at hand; saddening, with the knowledge that things can never truly be the same. If there's one thing I've learned about watching these dealings, its that people will always have a hierarchy to their friendships; and while I suspect that I'm at the top of very few, if any, of these pyramids, I still find it disheartening to know that so many memories and moments can be swept away, like tears in the rain.

But I guess that's change, then, isn't it? For good or for ill, something happens, somebody else remembers it, and we all end up moving on.

I just wish change wasn't so damn lonely.