Fool's Start

I really don't know what it is about home. Home, where my heart should be, has instead become a black hole which I cannot seem to escape. Time and again, my will fails me, my discipline falters, and I again taste the sickly nectar of words unfulfilled. Every God damn time I tell myself I'm going to do something, I don't pull through with it, which is odd; normally, in Stockton, I can abide by even the simplest rules I set for myself there. Examples being: stick on a diet, work out, study, etc. Here, at home, I can't even do the first two for more than 2 or 3 days in a row before I cave in to some junk food, or make some excuse to not work out.

So.....I suppose I'm writing this post tonight as a testament to putting an end to my lack of discipline. I don't think it matters if one person sees these words, or one hundred, or no one at all...I just need to see these words and know that they exist not just in my head, but somewhere where I can constantly be reminded of their existence. With that said, here's a few things I'm going to do between now and the end of when I think summer is over:

1. Swim in the morning, run/lift in the evening.
2. Stick to a consistent diet.
3. Go over lecture powerpoints for Eco/Evo 2-3 times a day.
4. Watch a shit ton of movies on my laptop and from the library.

So, whoever is reading this...if I fail to live up to these, and if you see me in Stockton come Fall 2009 as a mess, please, kindly, call me a flabby failure (and more, but I'll leave that up to you). Thank you.